Thanks Tom, those words really do mean alot to me! Today, I'm on a bit of a downswing but I will pull myself out of it. I've noticed that sometimes a couple of small things in a row will drag me down and I have to fight to resurface! Last night I was to attend a church group meeting, the first time. I was excited about meeting some of the guys and adding an activity to my week. I arrived at the coffee shop and sat for half an hour and noone showed up! So I went and did a little shopping and when leaving I drove by and I recognize a couple of the the guys meeting. My first thought was to park and go in but then I thought I no longer wanted to. Here I am, a new member of the group, invited to my first night and not one person shows up at a decent time to greet me or welcome me despite my confirming that I would be there. To me that says "who cares" and that's not a message that creates any good feelings within me these days. So, I went home. Is that oversensitive? Probably. I also had an experience recently where I emailed the Pastor to update her on my sitch, as she'd asked me at church how I was doing. I got no reply. Again, I don't respond well to being shunted aside these days. Now, on Wed. evening Coffee Buddy also continued her "wipe Whatis out of my life" campaign, which I thought I'd come to terms with but apparently not. It just hurt to know that my friend, who obviously isn't anymore, can't even ask "How did Christmas go". Again, my head understands why she is doing this but my heart says "why are you being so f*cking mean to me!" So, a couple of these things and my spirits seem to drop, so it's my job to get on with life and put a smile back on my face, I know noone else can do that for me. So that ends my wimpy and whiney confession for today!
