Just wanted to document a little bit of success, although considering the circumstances it might not be worth getting overly excited about. Friday night the whole family (wife, daughters, and myself) went out to celebrate a friend's birthday. There was a group of around 12 counting kids - mostly people that my wife works with and their spouses. We met for dinner then went bowling. While at the bowling alley, my wife had a few too many drinks which is unusual for her. We were there until about midnight (kept the girls out really late, but they behaved well and were really cute) and not long before leaving my wife walked over to me holding our two year old, gave me kind of a group hug, then kissed me. And for the first time in years, a passionate kiss! Soon after, we loaded up the girls and headed home, and as I drove my wife held on to me and laid her head on my shoulder. Granted, she was drunk, but it reminded me of how things used to be. When we got to the house I had to help her to the bed (the alcohol really seemed to hit her as we drove home) then I took the girls upstairs and got them to sleep. When I came back downstairs she was passed out on the floor not far from the bed after apparently making a run to the bathroom. I covered her with a blanket, pulled up a pillow, and fell asleep on the floor next to her so I could help her into bed when she woke up.
I honestly don't know if she'll even remember kissing me, but after so long it was really nice, even if she was drunk. And it felt good driving her home and helping her to the bed because, for a short time, she needed me. Even much earlier in the night, I knew that once we got home she'd either fall right to sleep or pass out, so I didn't get my hopes up about sex. I was actually quite happy just to have her kiss me.
I realize that I may be crazy, but I can't help but think that this was a step in the right direction. Just trying to be optimistic I guess.
