So last night went well I think. H came home from car dealership, ate supper with us, played with S on computer while I watched Grey's Anatomy (and bawled like an idiot, that show gets me sometimes, esp. last night they were talking about George cheating on his wife, etc.). Then I gave S a bath while H played with D. Just a "normal" night--I like that but it is so frustrating bc you wonder why he's moving out in 10 days if we can have such peaceful, enjoyable evenings? So kids were put to bed and we did the watch tv on separate couches thing. Actually had a good conversation too. I asked him how work was going--work constantly stresses him out. He told me that his company may get bought out by a bigger company. Asked what that meant for his job and he said, who knows? He may keep it if they get bought out, he may not. He said he's been looking for a job back home by our parents (we are both from same home town, high school sweethearts). I mentioned him getting a job w/a previous boss in TX, we talked about how this guy and H could do their cattle business together on the side, too--the guy is H's old boss but they still buy and sell cows together as a side business/hobby. It would even be easier for them to be partners if they lived in the same place. Anyway, I never mentioned me or the kids in either of the future scenarios, just kept the focus on him. He was really laid back for the whole conversation, didn't get nervous or agitated at all. He knows I am going to IA tonight to watch his niece play a b-ball game. Before he went to bed he said he may go too if he gets out of work early (I am NOT counting on it, for sure! He'd have to be back for a 7 am meeting tomorrow). All in all, it was a nice, normal night. It has been 5 days since he has said anything like "I am going crazy living here", or "I can't do this anymore". It has been 4 weeks since he has said anything about a D; even when he did, it was only one time in a fight where he said, "We're GONNA get divorced". But I know he is still moving out bc last night I gave him a paper he got in the mail re. furniture and he mentioned he was going to have it delivered instead of picking the furniture up himself. So one day at a time I guess.....
