Fred D, We all ramble on and vent when we're here, so don't worry about it. Just remember that for every negative action there is a negative reaction and your actions have not been very positive lately. If you are serious about rebuilding your M than you must work harder, I am afraid.
I don't think your W is so closed up to changes. She did stop the EA and come back to you. Once started, it is not so easy to put a stop to it but she did make an effort so that says a lot of how she must feel about you and your M. Now isn't that being proactive about your R? You had better go all out to prove to her that she made the right decision or you might just drive her right back to OG. I know that will be hard on you but it will be worth it. An A need not wreck a M. It can make it stronger if handled the right way. To have a harmonious, loving and warm home does wonders for one's health and well being. Besides you are way better than OG. OG does not have the history that you have with W. He does not have the special bond that you have with W in your mutual love for your child/children.
Good luck to you. I hope your sitch improves for the better if you start seeing it in a more positive light. LH
