Frank,

Maybe your W is feeling all the same things you talk about in your post about thinking too much. Maybe that is why she is the way she is - she is frozen into non-action by her fears and anxieties.

If that is the case and her fears are based on your behaviour and the money situation, by getting a job and her seeing you are taking action, you may well start to see a change in your W too and start and upwards spiral rather than the downward one you have been on. I truly hope so.

That particular post was amazing - thank you for it. It rang so many bells within me as it is exactly how I naturally respond when something hits me.

I know you probably don't feel like this at the moment, but you are truly blessed. You have helped so many others and they want to help you in return. You seem to be starting to see this and accepting the help thay are giving. That is fantastic and don't forget that their helping you and seeing improvements makes them feel good about themselves as well so you continue to help them as they see you improve.

I look forward to reading about your rise from this abyss.


Saffie
me 46
H 46
M in 1986
D20,D18,S16,D13
H's A 01/05 to 07/06
H recommitted to M 07/06
renewed vows 09/06
Going from strength to strength