bhopeful = I'll try that next time I've got the dreams/morning motivation problem.
Bear = I've read your two posts several times today. It's been a hard day for the "wife's actions beyond my control" and all of that. (ex: learned recently that she decided to smoke pot w/ a friend who was visiting; something I don't approve of in general, so that lowers my opinion of her - but I can't control it).
I'm going to start really directing my energies to moving on and letting go.
I know I've said that before, but this week's shown me that my wife is really no longer the woman I knew. If she ever returns to that person, we'll see what happens. But for now I've really learned that I have to accept that the woman I love is gone. It's sad as hell, but she is.
I'm going to print out that "letting go" thing and put it in my wallet. I need to have a reminder so I don't get wrapped up in my judgment. Because I think everyone here's seem how judgmental I can be.
Small victory for me: I really, really wanted to drink tonight. I didn't.
(I'm not a "pro-drinker", but I have recognized that I'm predisposed towards alcoholism, and have felt the strong desire to drink lately).
