It hurts even more when you see or hear somebody else enjoying a good rogering. This reminds me how I felt in high school when I was a pencil necked geek. I wanted a girlfriend so bad but I was too much of a literature nerd and the ladies didn't look my way. When I got to college I began working out and got some style things changed. You hear what women are really interested in having a guy that's sensitive: then why is it that I didn't get any attention until I grew 45 lbs of muscle and spent more money on one pair of shoes than previously spent on the whole wardrobe? Doing dozens of pushups doesn't make me any more sensitive than before. If anything, I'm less sensitive than when I was young. I have a theory that women are almost as affected by looks as men are. I know there are exceptions, however.
Anyway, my weekend sucked again too. I've really just begun to consciously apply what I've learned from SSM book and already I'm feeling overwhelmed, hopeless and depressed. I feel closer to her emotionally than I've felt in a long time (and I've told her) but I don't know if I can handle these emotions without some strong positive feedback. I know I should be patient but I can't control the way I feel. Like Sooner and FredD, I am happy for others that are improving their situations; in some way it leaves hope for all of us "achers" but, at the same time, we wonder if our situation is truly hopeless or if it will take so long that it won't matter by the time our spouses realize how important intimacy is for us. Being in my 30's, in good shape, I feel like my libido and sexual abilities are in their prime. I don't want to wait until I need viagra to start enjoying sex.
Ladies, please give us the secret location to your "on button" before we wither away!
