Man that stinks! To some degree I know how you feel. For some reason whenever H and I go out of town, that's when we have our biggest relationship fights. I think being away from all other distractions allows whatever is brewing deep inside us to surface and it just spills out.
Easter weekend, we went to beach for 3 days with another couple. I looked at him the wrong way, he snapped at me in front of our friends I went to the bathroom, and slammed the door. Our friends went on without us while we had an all day fight/discussion. We said very hurtful things to eachother. Lots of tears and talk of D. It was horrible and embarrassing.
But...as you know the fights don't last forever and the bright side is that we both got some stuff out into the open. And since we got back we have had long needed conversations and intimate time together.
We yell and talk loud when we feel as if our message is not being heard. It sounds like your W isn't hearing you. I also agree with MPT, maybe it's time to do some stuff for you. Cheer yourself up.
I know that this is frusturating for you and I am sorry for your pain. I however am glad you are posting here because it helps me see what kind of emotions my H was probably going through when I was not having sex with him. I don't ever want him to feel that way again. I didn't know how deeply the rejection went. Hearing you talk helps me stay focused and determined to never reject him again. I hope that very soon your W will come to realize the same thing. Until then, stay strong.
