Still hopeful for some pleasant surprises

[SirPrizeMe]

I had a pretty disturbing dream last night. I was out with friends and there were women; unspecific, sort of faceless women, who wanted me. I always have these vague dreams, there is a plot and action but it is pretty vague. Motivations and dialog don't figure too large. Anyway somehow this pretty thing and I connected. She was very small, petite, like a waif really, but she was a mature woman. Anyway we got together but "it didn't fit."

I am afraid of a relationship with a new person, I think. I still want to have a relationship with the mother of my kids. Really need to get off that, though.

repeat after me, Sir:
It's not happening. I have no control over it.
I have no control over it.
I have no control over it.