We are still playing a version of the blame game. I ask for things, even little things and they don't get done. He's always got an excuse and some how all of our "his excuse for not helping" conversations end up circling back to OM and how it's hard for him (because of EA) to do things for me and i'm trying not to let our conversations go there. I think the less time he spends actually thinking about it the better, so if i can keep it from coming up, i do.

Really, the one thing i want him to do right now is make some visible step that he wants to fix this M. Anything, help me around the house regularly (even if it's just something little), help with the girls, be willing to even think about the possiblity that there were problems before the EA... I don't know. I know that he has done a few little things (cleaned a room here and there or taking out the trash). I guess i just don't get very encouraged by them because then we are right back where we were. He's still over critical and negative and doesn't help. And I'm still cautious when talking to him about it(now because of EA rather than insecurity, but same dif)

He did actually ask me if i'm alright the other day though because he said that i was so much more mellow than i had been in a while and it was good to see me like that. But then he started thinking it was because i finally decided to leave him... i reassured him. \:\) Before all this drama, i was probably one of the most laid back people you'd meet and I'm trying to act as if like that now, til i get that back. I'm trying to do lots of things, i just don't see any of them working. I guess it's better than when he was angry all the time, so at least they are not not working... hehe

If i can't fall in love... I'd like to fall in chocolate! ~ Author Unknown

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