I think I'm done

[ms ladybug]

You know, I'm feeling a little down today.
I can't find a counselor that will at least CALL ME BACK that takes my insurance! I'm at my wits end with everything and really need some direction here.

H just called me. He's at the house (I'm at work). He's mad because he's looking for a bill and I don't know where it is. So, he ranting about everything, and how I haven't changed because the house is still messy, and when am I going to change, etc... You know, I'm tired of HIM waiting on me to change before he shows me that he can be a loving husband. Once I change, he says he'll work on things. Well, BS! You're either in or you're out. There's no waiting on someone else before you change! I'm sick of his CRAP!

These are the changes he needs before he'll work on himself:

1.Clean house, I need to keep the house clean, and the office clean. Papers filed. Bills paid. (Did I mention I work full-time and have two little ones and no help from him?)

2.I need to see a phychologist to take a 4hr psych test to prove I don't need psych meds. He didn't beleive the psychiatrist that told me I was fine, that I don't have depression, etc... HE wants the full-on testing.

3.I have to be willing to move to TN. Don't even get me started on this one.

The more I think about these things. That's not a marriage. It's a dictatorship. There's no compromise, or consideration in ANY of this!

Feeling like crap...