Get Me on a Smoother Ride.....Need Advice, Part 11

[ntl]

I know you all think I'm probably crazy to want to be with this man. He's got an alcohol problem and is involved in his second affair. It's remembering all the good times (and there were a lot) and remembering the love that keeps me wanting to be here. As my C says, someday the blinds might close for me and I won't want this any more. But for right now, I want to stay and fight. I don't know if I'm doing a very good job, but I'm staying.....for now.

No way, man. I totally get it. My H has cheated on me three times and here I am...still believing in the good man inside. Yes, to his credit, he is fighting his heart out for me this time and is doing things I never thought possible (going to SAA--Sex Addicts Anonymous, coming clean to our parents, etc.), but still.

I'll never judge you or anyone else. If anyone read about me, they'd probably think I was a moron for sticking around. But I'm the only one living in my shoes...and I've got to do the walking.

Love and hugs to you, friend.

ntl