Well why I can't say I am 100% ok and moving on, because I do need him back and miss him dearly, I have realized that the more I push for answers and the more I question about the OW and whether it is sexual or just emotional the more he gets tense and shuts down. I don't want him to shut down, I need him to talk with me and to me so I have to respect his desire for that privacy right now although it is hard since we never kept secrets from each before all this(so I always thought anyway).
I still hold out hope that he will realize he wants and needs to back in this family and comes home. Yes it may take weeks or months but as of this instant in time I am willing to wait it out like a BAD storm and hope it passes.
Really those 2 Jim Conway books are superb. They offer so much insight into Male MLC and what is going on in their heads when they walk out and if they develop an OW.
Keep your chin up and start reading and healing. I know I am struggling every day to do just that but HAVE to for myself, him, and the kids sake and pray this dark abyss he is in will soon begin to fill with light and he will head home.
Both 35 T 19/M 15 years S8/D5 It's over bomb/ILYBNILWY 12-22-07
