I'm not wallowing. I am expressing to you a downside of what some might perceive to be "victory".
Great. So I am more "complete". Am I? Do you know that it only recently occured to me that one of the legacies I have left my children is the necessity of wrapping up their babies twice on Christmas to take them once to my house and then to their father's? That matters to me. But back in my MLC days, all I could see was that if I wasn't happy, I had to do whatever was required to GET happy. Well, THIS is what that got me. I am not happy and I have set my kids up to not be happy either.
I get that this is not entirely my burden, too. My husband has enough dysfunction of his own but guess what? I'm the only one that seems to be aware of the long term effects of this bullsh*t and it pisses me off sometimes.
