I have had such a great day today! I went to see my therapist for the first time and she is such a nice, sweet woman. I got the impression she thinks my H is an a**hole though. She says I was in a severe depression for the last 3 years and I shouldn't beat myself up for what I didn't do to save the marriage which is what I've been doing for the last 5 weeks since H started his affair (or at least told me about it). She did seem skeptical that H's affair with the married woman with kids is a very healthy relationship, which I guess is pretty obvious to everyone but H. She made me feel like I will be able to get strong and healthy with therapy and ADs which made me feel a lot better. She says the positive things I'm doing are really good, and I sound look a good mom. She was really sweet. I really liked her a lot. It's nice to have someone so positive in my life, since H has been so negative. I think she was really shocked and horrified by his emailing the OW in front of me. She didn't even seem like she could believe that one. Just said how rude that was! That was at the very end of the session, so I guess if he keeps doing that, we could talk about that more at a later date. I'm going to go see her every week and just try to get as strong and healthy as possible so I can get through this next year as best I can. I am so glad I went!!!
