So, updates, hmm... H came home after work last night. Played with kids while I made dinner. Then ate with us, asked me about my job opportunities--I had called him all excited yesterday about the Center Director thing--and I gave him the note from the center owner that I got in the mail. He read it and said it sounded cool, that the guy must think I would be pretty good. Anyway just small talk about me being excited to go back to work, talk about/with the kids, etc. I asked him if he was wanting to go to the Bball game on Fri. up in Iowa. He is unsure as he has to work until 5 Friday, would drive 2 hours to see game, then drive back as he has a work meeting at 7:00 am Saturday back here. I decided me and the kids will probably go regardless and spend the night Friday in Iowa w/my parents after spending the evening with his family at the ball game. Anyway it was another frustratingly good night, actually. We had a good time playing with the kids and hanging out, not one argument or angry comment, just a regular time. But SOOO awkward to me because we don't touch each other anymore and to sit by him on the floor with the kids and not flirt or touch is soo hard and weird for me. It makes you want to scream "What is the problem?? We are having a GOOD time here! So snap out of it!" But of course I don't because, after all, we are having a good time so why ruin it. After the kids went to bed, he went out to the truck and brought his things in (he had gone to a hotel Tues. night). I guess that meant he was spending the night at our place!? Oh yeah, he left a receipt for the hotel he got Sunday night on the counter yesterday morning. It showed he had paid for 3 nights, Sun,Mon, and Tues, when he checked in. I asked him when he came in why he had gotten a new room on Tues. night if he had already paid the hotel for 3 nights (although he stayed with us on Mon. night, not at the hotel). He says he had told the hotel Mon. morning to cancel the next 2 nights and they said they wouldn't charge him for them...then he had to get a new room when he went back Tues. So I guess I should take it as a good thing that he didn't stay gone for 3 days since that was his original intention? Oh and before bed I had changed into a nightgown, nothing too racy just a cute, but short, cotton nighty--rather than my usual t-shirts! As I passed him in the hall, he looked at me and said "Woah!", but kept walking. Don't know if that was a compliment or if he was just suprised. We sat on separate couches and watched TV for 15 minutes. Then he went to the bathroom, came out, and said he was going to bed. He asked if I was going to bed, too (I sleep in a different room). So tempted to ask if he meant with him, but I didn't! I said no, want to give D time to really be asleep before I go in her room for bed (our guest bed is in D room). So then he layed back down on the other couch, but he had said he was going to bed? Maybe wanted to be out there cause I was out there? Who knows. Anyway, I got up 15 min later to go to bed and when I came out, he was in our bedroom with the light still on. I know I shouldn't have, but I poked my head in. Asked, "Are you still on the "We'll see what happens plan?" [He had first said he didn't know how it could work out, then a couple weeks later said, we are OVER, then a week later said he wanted to try to fix our marriage and see what happens] He said "Yes, that is still the plan, we'll see." So I am sure I went too far, but I said, "So, does that mean we will talk about things and be in the same room together (meaning for sleeping)?" He replied, "At some point, yes". So I just said, "Okay, goodnight. Thanks for being excited about my job options today. I am glad I have your support" He said you're welcome and goodnight. Then I went to bed. Back to the job hunt today. He told me goodbye this morning when he left for work--hasn't done that in a while-- and I asked if he'd be home for supper and he said yes. So I guess continue the 180 and GAL..... Sorry so long but wanted to update things.
