Bit of journaling, went to see my atty today and we submitted an agreement to her atty stating we were prepared to sign with these changes few changes. Guess we'll see how that goes over. I can only view this as a formality and it's completely over. It hurts like sh!t but we must move forward.
She and I agreed to meet at the house this morning. I had something I wanted to give her. We had talked yesterday and she felt a little better about everything after that. Basically I told her I hope she can break free of her fear, anger, bitterness, etc and let that loving and compassionate person out once again. That I finally was able to do that after 3 years of struggling and not knowing how. Thanks to God and Jesus I broke free of the fear and now love, compassion and optimism are what's guides me. Also I realized that I, without conscientiously try to, had in all likelihood been trying to break that fear shell for her. I know and realize only she can do that and all I could ever do is help her along the way if even wanted the help.
So this morning with love and compassion for her and her struggles with the fear, I gave her my copy of The 5 Languages of Apology. My reason, only so that she might be able to benefit from it. No agenda just a friend sharing something they hope will help. I hope she reads it, benefits greatly from it and that it helps her break free of her fear so that love and compassion guides her. May she find peace, love and compassion where ever God has decided for her to go.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
