Living together as semi-polite strangers

[mishka422]

Thank you Punktmann. Your insight really help to settle me down an little. I'm getting myself back into a really dark place again and I had worked at getting out of that. I really had worked so hard at it but it was certainly easier without him in my face everyday. I don't understand why he came back. I told him I wanted him back in the house so we could work on it but only if he truly wanted that and could put her behind him. He knows how I feel about infidelity. He knows the idea makes me sick. Yet, again, today, he is right back at her place. Yesterday and today! Today! After last night he is still at her place today. I can't tell him to leave and go back to her because that could mess me up in the end (if it comes to that).

I think I'm going to have to ignore him completely and only speak to him when directly spoken to. Treat him like I was when he was out of the house. No contact unless he initiates it. Pretty difficult when he is in the same bed. He initiated the contact last night, not me. I let it make me think that he wanted me and our relationship.....what an idiot I am. I don't know how I can allow him to keep making such a fool out of me. I've never considered myself a weak woman but obviously I am when it comes to him.

I almost feel worse now than I did when he left. I wish he'd just go away so I could figure myself out without him.