Well, I'm still learning and/or making sure I put in the *effort* I need to in our M and specifically our SL.
Example: last night, I was exhausted. H wanted to have S and I could barely keep my eyes open so it didn't happen. I was worried this a.m. that he was going to think that things were going to start going back to the "old days." So, instead of worrying about what he was thinking or even talking to him about it, I just took a quick shower this a.m. and hopped back in bed w/ him.
I've gone back to my LD'edness quite a bit. I think the drama of the whole D sitch had my juices flowing and now that's not happening anymore. However, I have figured out that the reason I feel this way and felt this way for so long before is that our SL has kind of gone back to the way it was before. Very "vanilla" as LFL would call it and I'm not having an O hardly at all. It's kind of like he gets what he needs and that's it. I know that this is partially my fault and I need to *do* things so that that is not happening, however, I don't know if it's my AD or what, but I'm just not "into" it as much. I'm just making sure that I'm doing it "for him" and also to keep the intimacy in our M alive. Also, we're in a different sitch as he is leaving Saturday, so I don't want to get into any "talks" or anything. Hopefully when he gets back, I can get things going for both of us again.
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
