Living together as semi-polite strangers

[mishka422]

So you've got a 60 day time limit too? If I thought for an instant that he would put a hold on this D he filed for I wouldn't panic so much but I really think he's looking at this as 60 days until he can say "he gave it a try" and move on without really ever trying.

Last night I let something stupid happen and now I feel like total cr*p. My H turned over in the middle of the night and held me like he always used to. It woke me up enough (out of my Ambien sleep) for me to realize what he was doing and it felt so nice that I put my hand over his and fell back asleep. He eventually let go and rolled back over. Shortly after that I realized that he was messing around with me and I let him. Not only did I let him, I enjoyed it and reciprocated. Knowing what I know about what he did yesterday morning how did I let that happen? How did I just offer myself up as a middle of the night playtoy to him? Now I just feel like I've been used and tossed aside again. I swear, he brings all my emotions to the surface but for him it's just sex, no tenderness, no love, nothing. Why did I do this to myself? I knew better.

How do I move past this?