Hi Rachel55, Thankyou for your words. That's exactly how I feel. Today has just been awful for me. I am filled with so much anxiety. My H hasn't left yet but I'm sure by this time next week he will be gone. I just can't live like this any longer. The worst is still yet to come. I have to stand by helpless as my son is about to have his world crumble around him. I'm hoping that is where I will draw my strength from. I have wonderful friends who will stand by me and get me through this. I just hate the way I feel and wish all this pain would just go away. Even with all the friends and family I have I still feel so very alone. I'm sure you know what I am talking about. I'm so sorry for your pain aswell. Nobody should have to feel this way...NikkiNY
