Divorce just about final ~ Lovingme

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Thank you ~ I hope you all had a very Merry Christmas! Life is good here. Boys and I had a FABULOUS time at Disney World. We loved it and I was so proud of myself. I posted a blog on my myspace page that I will copy here. I have been thinking about how much my life has changed the last two years.

"I have been thinking alot lately about how happy I am in life right now. A couple of years ago I thought my life was over. In a way I suppose it was. The life I had known had ended. Everyone told me I would be ok and I was better off and all the things you tell your loved ones to try and help them feel better. I didn't believe it for a long time. Sure over the months things got better, then worse, then better again.

Over the last two years I took the time to get to know me and what makes me happy. I didn't jump right into another relationship or jump from one relationship to another. I love me and am happy with me! Once I accomplished that I am now ready for a long term relationship. You can't rely on others for your happiness. It is all up to you!

Anyone that sees or hears Kevin and I talking are always in amazement at the relationship that we have. We both made mistakes, some bigger then others. You never forget but you do forgive. No one understands how I can talk to him the way I do. We have been a part of each others lives for 16 years since we were children ourselves and we now have two awesome boys together. He will forever be a part of my life. We can choose to make that as bad or as good as we wish. Fortunately we both wish for it to be good. We both know that old relationship we had is over. I am truly happy and I hope that he will be someday as well. Now we have a friendly co-parent relationship where we can laugh and joke with each other and still help each other out. I honestly wish all kids with divorced parents could have what Tyler and Ryan have.

One of my best friends said to me a few weeks ago, "Do you realize everything you have done the last two years? Do you realize you would have never done these things if all of this crap hadn't happened?" She is so right!

Over the last two years I have been to Vegas twice with a couple of my best friends, the boys and I spent a week in a cabin in Gatlinburg, we spent a week in Kentucky, we took long weekends to Chicago and Louisville. I took Salsa and Bellydance classes. I took classes for me. I met lots of new friends and became closer to those I already had. I got a makeover and am on TV! The boys and I spent a week in Disney World. I took them on their first plane ride, I took them on their first trip to Florida and Disney. Me!!! I did this for them all by myself. There is so much more I would have never done if my life didn't take the turn it did. They are memories the boys and I will have together for the rest of our lives.

I saved the best for last. Those of you close to me know I have met a wonderful MAN! Jeremy and I have been together for 4 months. In retrospect most would say that is not a long time. To us it feels like forever. To our family and friends it seems like so much longer. They say we act like we have been together for 20 years! He fits right in with my family and they love him. We both come from very close families and have the same ideas as to what makes a family a family. He makes me laugh and smile, he gives me butterflies. He is more then I could have ever hoped for. He has three very beautiful daughters. The kids all get along great..well they act like brothers and sisters :-) I can't put into words how happy he makes me. I am more in love now then I have ever been. I think that is because I am mature enough now to know what true love is. All I know is that I hate to leave him in the morning and can't wait to get back to him in the evening!

The last two years have been a life changing and learning experience for me. God doesn't give you more then you can handle and as long as you hold on tight and believe sooner or later you come to realize he was only getting you to something better then you have ever experienced before.

Thank you for all of your love and support. 2007 ended on a VERY high note and 2008 is my year"