I think if you can take the focus off of him completely for now, you'll be better off. Focusing on doing things to make you happy would be a much better use of your time and energy at this point, I think.
I know it's SO hard not to dwell on that stuff, far easier said than done, but I think it would help you a lot.
I was also thinking.. it's been a long time with no contact, right? I wonder if it might be time to dip a toe in the water a bit - a short call (even better if you can just leave voicemail), or a quick email, maybe? I dunno.. a Happy New Year note, or something? I wouldn't invite him to do anything yet, but seeing what reaction you get from a little attempt at contact might be worth a try.
Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7 Bomb 1 10/07/06 Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15 Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07 Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate 2/08 slowly improving 7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!) Current thread
