H never came back from Iraq

[MichelleLT]

Well, today H's AIM says "Off to class". H's school started last Thursday though, so I'm confused since he didn't seem to be back yet. I wanted to look at a friend's blog on MySpace, but when I click on the subscriptions it shows me everyone that I subscribe to. H and OW each posted multiple blogs about their trip and his name shows up in the title of one of hers. I didn't read them, but it's so hard not to. I keep trying to tell myself that no good will come of it, but I'm so curious.

I also am confused because H is supposed to be attending training from January 20th to whenever so he wasn't planning on taking classes this quarter. I guess maybe that changed.

It also looks like he scrapped his idea of doing his Man vs. Wild take-off. Shock and surprise there. He's always been a dreamer, but somewhat lacking in his execution.

I hate not talking to him. I hate not knowing what's going on with him. It feels completely hopeless and it feels like nothing I do matters since he doesn't know about it anyways. I guess this week just sucks all around since I've now officially proved the adage that being married is the most certain way to never have sex. I didn't even have to be celibate this long when he was deployed since he came home on leave!