FLTC, you are frustrated, bitter, angry. resentful, but it is the situation you are in. You can either dwell on why your WAW does this or doesn't do that, but not much good will come out of that. You can't do anything to directly change the way how she feels. Everything you feel is natural, but at some point you have to let them go and just worry about taking care of yourself and the kids. Yeah it is very hard and it's a daily struggle. At times I think if I just did this or that or if my W just did this or that things would be different and better and we wouldn't be heading towards a D. I even kick myself for things I did the past 4-5 months. But what good does that do besides bringing me down? I certainly can't change the past. Just remember, your W is in alien mode and does not do anything logical that you or me can understand or fathom. She doesn't think about anything long term or the devastating effects it has on the kids or you. Keep going with your life. You'll be better off in the end with or without her.... It's not easy but it's what we all LBS have to do to bring some sanity into this crazy mess.
M: 31 W: 31 M: 7 T: 8 S:4 D:2 Bomb dropped: too many to count or remember, 12/17/07 last one S on 9/2/07 W sent off D papers 12/31/07. Me trying to live life and hope she returns one day.
