Talked to a friend who laid it out for me. Get YOUR crap together because that's what she's testing you on, and face it, if you don't get it together now, then when?
He thinks that it's the lack of feeling safe financially and emotionally that is the big problem for her, and that is the big problem for my self esteem also.
Still thinks that with changes in my attitude, there is still a chance she will be drawn back. I don't know. I think the more she sees a 'better' life away with her friends and 'like minded' people the more she will not want to stay.
