B...don't be too hard on yourself. I get reall frustrated with things like this. I mean look at the position oue WASs put us in and we have to act perfect all the time?? Don't negate your own feelings either, you're entitled to them...even if you should have zipped you mouth about it. I did something similar recently and H pointed out how "it was just like our whole R". I felt bad that I did it, but I also felt like screaming, "well if you'd given me a chance I may have been able to change to save our M...but you ran away and say it's over so WTF is the point now? Is it fair for him to call me out on things that he says won't make a difference now anyway??
You have been doing extremely well, one little slip up shouldn't make our break anything. If you reconcile will she expect perfection?? I hope not!
Anyway, I got a little defensive for you there...sorry about the rant!
Having said all that, we know these changes are for ourselves first and foremost and at least she knows you have been changing. Look at this is a good chance to talk about the R...you got some insight about her feelings which isn't a bad thing. Good luck at lunch! J~
M 35 H 29 M 4 yrs T 9 yrs D 3 S born 10/19/07 Bomb 09/10/07 Separated next day OW - broke up and H moved out 09/07/08 Status - still figuring this out
