Work yesterday was made even easier because while we were at a Gamestop (which is where all of them wanted to go post-dinner) my friend called me on the phone. The kid I work with was playing a system that was right in front of the door to the outside - so I stepped out and was on the phone for 15 min while he played his game. That was easy stuff! ...everyone at my work knows about my situation. Most have actually said that they thought that the W and B relationship/friendship thing was really weird to them (w/o me promtping them).
I've also begun to learn that convos with my W go nowhere - regardless of the topic, I think most of the time she's either talking to me out of guilt or selfishness. heh. Either that, or pure ignorance of where I am. Regardless, I'm going to go as dark as I can.
This thought ran through my head yesterday, and I feel it embodies why I should 'go dark'.
"How can she act like she's my friend, when she can't even show me the respect I'm due for having been her husband?"
I think if I repeat that to myself, it'll help me keep my distance from her.
It's going to be very weird this Friday having a birthday party without her there. But it's going to be the first of many, so I'm going to enjoy the company of all my other friends and be content with that.
My present to myself today will be to try and not think about my situation as much as possible! Friday's the actual party (day off, whoo!) but I'm going to enjoy today as much as possible.
