It's a tough spot you're in, I can sympathize with you. I agree with other's that maybe you're giving your W too much credit for your current emotional state. It's not about HER. She's weak and flawed just like the rest of us. She doesn't necessarily need saving, just love (1C:13). And she's not in the business of saving and supporting, that's what Jesus does best.
Be mindfull of other forces that could be contributing to your emotional state. Finances are a huge factor in tearing down a man's self esteem. We're born and raised to provide for our families, and when we're not productive our self esteem deteriorates. Before we know it we're attacking those closest to us, blaming our misery on others. Well that's what happens to me anyway.
Frank, you're really focusing on the half empty glass right now. Things could be worse, alot worse. If you don't believe me then just go visit your local hospice, or childrens hospital. There are people fighting for there last breath as I'm writing this. We still have alot of fight left in us.
It's easy to get depressed buddy. I get that way too sometimes, but we've just got to keep moving forward, accepting life as it comes, and trying to find peace and joy in the moments. Stay close to your kids right now, let your W be who she is, and start supporting Frank today. Go take a long walk down the beach, and force yourself to smile. Find a mirror, look yourself in the eye, and say "I love you". Ask your God to save you, to lift you up, and to guide you through this challenge.
God Bless The Struggle,
COG
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