Living together as semi-polite strangers

[mishka422]

ba - It was certainly easier dealing with this when he had left and moved in w/OW. At least then I didn't have to see him everyday and be reminded of how horribly wrong my life has gone. No, I'm not intimate with him but not because I don't want to be. He doesn't want to be intimate with me, only her. I see, I lose 50 pounds and now I'm not attractive to him anymore but I was 50 pounds heavier or was he just finding a way to fake it then? Gees! I'm ready to completely implode!

Had a major major crying fit in the car on my way home from work tonight. NOT GOOD TO DO WHEN YOU ARE DRIVING!!!! Massive panic attack and though I was going to die! Still shaky and uncertain about everything. I almost wish he would move back in with her!

Going to bible study. Hopefully it will help calm me down.