Stuck in Neutral - MN Man's 5th thread

[phbear316]

MMan

That statement about hanging on to your morals is so true. hang on to them, don't bring your self down to her level

I have been trying my hardest to keep my morals with my h. Does he deserve them, no. But i just feel that i cannot just shut off the feeling that everyone deserves a gift or a card for their birthday, or other special occasion. And i believe in giving rather that receiving at chirstmas. (as you know with me) I still have not gotten a gift from h and don't want one, its not the gift i want from him its a second thought gift. So i know how you feel. I still felt in my heart that it was a good thing to give him something to let him know i did care. Nothing expensive or fancy. I would not personally go over $50. and i did not.

Just keep telling yourself you are better, i am strong, I am creative i am me, a good person! Is it hard, yes but do it. I keep trying to say this to myself at least once a day. Is it helping I'm not sure, but i was a new years resolution, so I have to give it a try.

I also understand the inability to avoid each other with the work issue. My H and I jobs are intertwined like string. H is management in the EMS field, I am an administrative assistant in the EMS field. So i know all about his job, he know little about what i do, but comes to me with questions and problems. (we now use the same software for scheduling) In fact h was working the streets, i turned the dispatch radio off the first time i heard him. I know its draining, just keep busy doing your work. If you have a slow point (don't know what you do) can you listen to ipod or mp3? Look busy at all times.

In fact yesterday, h was very chatty on the phone, he called me, i had to end the conversation, by saying, oh something just broke downstairs, sounds like glass, I have to go. I would avoid him more if he did not call on my direct number, and use my cell i would not answer it.

I agree it has to be hard working together. I don't know how strong i would be, but you are doing it. Keep you chin up. Your a good person MMan.

check back later,
bear