H never came back from Iraq

[MichelleLT]

H is on AIM again today. His away message says "showering and then finishing packing." At first I was confused since I've gotten notifications that both H and OW have been posting and editing blogs on MySpace and I thought H was home, but I guess he's leaving soon. (Before all this happened OW was one of my friends on MySpace. I deleted her a couple weeks into all this crap but I forgot to unsubscribe from her blog I guess). I've been refraining from going and looking at them. OW's I probably can't read anyways. H probably has his set to public but I'm not sure knowing what they wrote will do anything but piss me off. OW edited and reposted hers 4 times in the space of 5 min (unless she really posted 4 blogs) so I wonder if they were trying to figure out what they could say w/o giving away their PA.

I have to agree with your bit about "happiness." He has told me on several occasions (before he stopped speaking to me) that even though he doesn't believe in D it's his "only chance for happiness" and that I was the one making him miserable. Plus he says OW "makes him happy" and he has to "follow his feelings." Whatever that all is supposed to mean. Yet somehow H still doesn't believe in D. We'll see if he files when he gets back I guess. As much as it scares me, I'll deal somehow I guess.