super quick summary of my sitch: drama/fighting/off and on H sleeping in office 14-16 months before ILYBNILWY from me to H. H asked for D - 4/07. In house seperation (h staying in home office/me in bedroom). I had online EA 6/07-9/07. End of Aug, H decided he wanted to try again. He found EA. I ended it. tried MC, H says it doesn't work. I've been trying to read and learn how to deal w/ my H. I think H is trying, there just not a whole lot of visible signs. He's still home and saying it. I'm not attracted or in love, but I'm working on that.
There's lots of other little junk that goes in the middle, but that's the just of it! ---------- I'm trying to start focusing more on the positives and things that i can do, than on all the things my H isn't doing. It's going ok so far today...
H always has an excuse why he's not helping me, so i'm just saying "i understand that you are (tired, sick, stressed, busy...). You don't have to apologize for feeling that way."
On a very very positive note for me. Last night we were watching american gladiators and D3 woke up after having a bad dream, H let her sit with him on the couch and watch it rather than having me soothe her and send her back to bed. She was soooo excited, she had a smile from ear to ear. it was the best thing i've seen in a long time.
Hope everyone is doing well.
If i can't fall in love... I'd like to fall in chocolate! ~ Author Unknown
it was the best thing i've seen in a long time.
