Oh, ((((((((((((((Andy)))))))))))))))) I'm so sorry to hear that your wife is so lost in the dark! Hope other areas of your life are providing some nurturance. How are your kids? It is strange. I was going to write something about Andy the Lionhearted in that post above and now it seems so appropriate. I admire the courage, strength, and nobility, it took to write the above. Hope that someday you will be able to relax. I know many here, including me, are proud of you. Good character is it's own reward but I hope you will also reap an external reward--preferably the healing of your marriage someday. 2L