I agree that the issues must be addressed and even angrily but what I am saying is that going from zero interaction to "get in line or else" doesn't wash. I have to find my way out of my lack of passion and what that may mean is finding the passion in me for my M and not so much counting on having passion for H. My passion for H has hit really hard times and I guess that is also part of what caused the "if he won't I won't" stand off and what has also made it difficult for me to take charge of my own desires. So, I think maybe my "joke" of the other night about finding an LSU alumnae (AS IF) to hook up with represents part of where I need to go from here. I need to lighten things up, create motion in this R, insert some warmth and then........if H doesn't play along it really is on him and not me and I can address it - straight up, in vivo instead of in a two page summary of the past 8 months.
