Sorry things are tense again. But it's totally understandable. Must feel unfair, and scary. This is a big trigger, no doubt about it.
I relate a lot -- been there -- exactly there -- and want to offer a hand, a hug, a sympathetic nod. I wish I had good advice. Be patient. Don't catastrophize. Take precautions and get medical help.
Take care of yourself, and if you can, give him the benefit of the doubt. If it turns out he's lapsed, his guilt will punish him -- you don't have to.
If he hasn't lapsed, something else may be causing your symptoms? Get a doctor's opinion?
Anyway, remember that men and women are different (and then individuals are, too) and don't seek his solace where he ain't got it to give. My H never handled my stress the way I wanted him to. Not even in the early, euphoric days.
Good thing you can come here. Vent, share, worry here -- we're listening. You've been so helpful to so many of us -- we only wish we could repay you. We'll try.
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Be sure you do OTHER THINGS than fret, ok? Take care, keep posting,
