Well, yesterday I was angry and today I just feel so so sad. I'm pretty sure H is going to leave. He won't admit it yet. I told him if he has made his decision then to please pack up before he goes on his golf weekend and don't come back. I know this trip isn't to see AW, he is going with married friends of ours. They do this once a year. He said he's been trying to do some soul searching. He went and sat in central park yesterday then went to church. He said he hasn't made a decision and if he decides over the weekend then he'll pack up next week. Yipee, he can do it next week on our 15 year anniversary. I have to let him go. I can't live another day like this. Just needed to vent. [Frown]

Nikki