1st post- he left- came back- & just left again

[trytoohard]

Oh Tipper, it hasn't been all lonliness and despair!

In the past 2 1/2 years I have come fully back to God, remodeled my kitchen and bathroom mostly by myself, the help from friends and family, lost 50 pounds, read over 75 books, got a promotion, changed my look, met so many fantastic new people at church and work, reconnected with friends from high school and college, started writing again, got my daughter off to college, taught my son how to drive and helped him restore a '67 El Camino, went flying down a mountain on a zip wire (afraid of heights), went white water rafting in Colorado, went shopping in Mexico, traveled out of town for work, stopped biting my fingernails, got healthy enough to come off blood-pressure meds, officiated a funeral for my H's cousin that committed suicide (they asked ME), got re-baptized along with both of my kids, traveled all over the mid-west for my son's racing, learned to lay tile and oh my goodness so much more!

That is the beauty of this. What you choose to do with this gift your H has given you. The real misery and lonliness is to be in the same house with someone who only sees you with loathing and regret. If I'm going to be lonly, I'd rather be alone.

I never thought it possible to become this person that I am now. So different from 3 years ago. I am much more confident, loving, funny, joyful, smart, forgiving, insightful and motivated.

I stood yes, but I was getting a life while I was standing. Picture this...I took a wedding photo of H and I and put it on a shelf, then I went on with my life. I looked at the photo every morning and every night, renewed my commitment to my marriage and promised myself that I would stay faithful in all my GAL activities then WENT ON WITH MY LIFE!!

The only thing I didn't do was get a boyfriend. That was my way of standing.

It's all about perspective my dear friend. Glass half empty or half full? I choose to believe the glass was designed wrong and went about the task of making a new glass!