It's kind of weird; he is curious about what I am doing (or can be) at times and sometimes not. I sometimes think that he doesn't want me, but he also doesn't want me NOT wanting him.
I also get a sense that if I were to start dating, he would think that it's okay (for both of us to date), and maybe then he would consider introducing our kids to the OW.
He sometimes tends to follow my lead. As an example, going to Church with the kids. The priest recently asked the congregation the following question: If I were to visit your home, would I know you are a Catholic? Are there any visible signs?
Well, there are in my house. I have a small corner coffee table with a Bible and a few other religious objects (one of the objects is a statue of Mary I painted at a carnival with our kids). Well, later he mentioned to me about the priest's question, and mentoned HIS nightstand; on his nightstand is a crucifix the kids and I gave him. The wood is from the Holy Land. There is also a Bible he "won" when he was a child for memorizing a Bible verse in a Bible Study class.
He is Catholic but wasn't raised in the faith, like I was. I think he likes the way I try to instill that in our children; having faith in God, and loving Him. It makes me think he appreciates me instilling it in our kids because he didn't have that as a child.
As I am typing this, I am reminded that from what I have read, a person is most likely to have a MLC if they have gone though things as a child that they never dealt with. Both of his parents were divorced three times a piece. (His parents were teenagers when they got married.) My parents were not perfect, but they stayed together for 46 years, until my Father's passing.
Thanks for reminding me to get back out there and do things that are fun without him, so I don't appear as though I am sitting aroung waiting. And waiting.
