Oh yes! I also detest feeling insecure, needy, and not good enough....
I feel very much the same way that you do about your W's friends. Since my H has started a new job (in the midst of all of this mess), he has made new work friends, and sometimes hangs out with them. I hate that I am not invited to meet them, don't hear about all the job stuff. I wonder what he tells them about me.
Your 'setback' didn't set anything back. I have done some things this summer (snoop-wise) that I am not proud of, but I am most angry at one point you touched briefly on: I feel all of these days that were wasted on the hurt and torment of my status as a LBS, I can't get them back. I have less pictures of the kids, I didn't do as much with them on their summer break, and I avoided certain fall activities as well. I can't ever get those days back.
Thank you so much for posting this. It rings sooo true.
