WOW - i do a lot of whining here... i was just doing some reading back and i think that from the start of this i have some amazing things to be grateful for:
- H has started taking out the trash and has made a few attemps to help me clean - H has been asking less and less often about OM in the last couple weeks - H is trusting me more now than he has at anytime in the last year and a half of our M (thank you for pointing that out DomR) - i've taken responsibility for EA best way i know how and I feel like I'm doing everything i can to show H I'm being faithful and honest - been trying to stop feeling guilty when H makes his comments and says things that have previously made me feel bad - I'm happier overall because i'm focusing on things i can do and trying not to stress and get mad about Hs actions and words - have stood up for myself and not let H attack me - I have gotten more organized - i've been more sexually open with H and in turn, H doesn't respond as upset when I tell him i don't like the groping and grabbing. - I have read about relationships and gotten some invaluable insight and advice here.
I need to focus on these things and keep working. I'm sure there are more, but for now, it's a start!
Thanks everybody
If i can't fall in love... I'd like to fall in chocolate! ~ Author Unknown
