Hang in there Bomb, you're gonna make it through this. I speak from experience.
Great that you're taking AD's. I'm taking them too. It can take a few weeks for them to kick in and give you the full benefit. Even then you won't necessarily feel like a million bucks but you'll be able to function. My C put it this way; they're not supposed to numb you to the point of not feeling, just level out the extremes.
The attacks/fighting is par for the course. The silver lining in that cloud is you know something is not right with your spouse. There is nothing wrong with you. They will tell you there is and its all your fault, but believe me when I say it ain't about you. They can get pretty holier than thou at this time, act all insulted because of something we said or didn't say (It's OK for her to talk to OM but how dare you go to bed without saying goodnight).
Keep detatching, keep yourself busy. Ask doc for something to help you sleep if you need to. Hope for the best but plan for the worst. You're gonna be OK. You are so far ahead of where I was at this stage of the game.
"The answers are within you" (can't remember who). Unfortunately, so is the bullshit.
