Wife in Major MLC...Looking to Vent

[bombardier50]

Hey Sleep, I'm here, but just not doing too good the past couple of days. She was cold and distant all weekend. I'm trying to detach and just be friendly and helpful, but I'm just dying inside. The strength I had before seems gone now.

We had dinner at the neighbor's Saturday night. She excused herself early to go home to bed because she had to get up and go to work Sunday morning. I stayed for another hour and walked home. When I got home, she was talking to the EA OM. I was a little disgusted at that so I made the mistake of just going up to bed without saying goodnight.

Well, last night she ripped my head off for that. Demanded an apology. Told me I really hurt her feelings. I heard "There's so much more to life" and "I've just had enough" more than once.

So last night was horrible. Couldn't sleep. Worries just saturated my brain to the point of feeling panic...couldn't shut them off. Slept for maybe an hour. Of course, when I'm tired, I'm even worse at shutting off my brain, and everything seems even more hopeless.

She will come home tonight, and I just don't know if I can bear another evening of her attacks. I hope she'll just let us be at peace.

Tomorrow we see the MC. I'm so, so scared about it. I hope the antidepressant kicks in soon, because I don't know how much longer I can feel like this.