You have come such a long way and worked so hard. I too, know how hard it is to "keep the home fires burning" and get a major move organized. Congrats on keeping it together throughout it all!
You and your family have been through so many changes lately. You are still working so hard to come to terms with your boundries and needs. From outside the situation, reading your words, it sure looks like H has really been "on the ball" and things are moving forward for you both.
I'm not sure how to say this. I guess I've always leaned toward believing in positive thinking. Or that you receive what you visualize. I think my wish for you is that you could take just a little while to just refuse to let the xOw take one more ounce of joy away from you by spending a moment letting the POTENTIAL of her returning ruin the reality you have.
I'm not saying you don't need answers. But I think he just may realize the sacrifices you have made. I think he may also know that you "hate" to hear him say he loves you because you don't hear that, you hear the "other half unsaid"....
