I saw a post on the subject of detaching and I could not agree more. It is a very strange thing to do and convince the mind that it is fine to be elusive, indifferent and cold.
We had a nice weekend and I even got a real hug, held hands few times in the supermarket and then made love when we got home. It is amazing how alert and intense the mind and all the feelings are, just looking for any sign, be it bad or good. It is something I am working on as well as the detaching, just to relax and enjoy life for what it is and not try and micro manage it.
Yet I am still in a position where I can say that I do not fully trust my W and I certainly don't trust the OM. It is not easy, but getting a little easier with every day.
It is also amazing how many movies involve affairs and such behaviour and I know that my wife skips past them and does not even pretend to want to watch them. I think that is good. There was a also some movie about a couple having a baby, and my wife looked at me kind of we will never be there. We were doing infertility stuff when the A started so it is a huge skeleton that we have to dig out at some point.
Just want to let you know that even when things seem tough and one feels all alone, there is some love under that cold strange person that we really do not know,
