W still angry with me, but the intensity lessens

[Lanzo]

WAW has drawn me into her confusing world and caused me to slip up. (Sorry Sandi).

The last few days she has been discussing things around the house that go well into the future, our future, and she's been doing this with real enthusiasm. Both of us have been getting really excited about this.

Here's an example of our confusion. I told W we need better xmas decorations for next year. She said stop talking about xmas next year. I said why, is that because we wont be together. She said no, the next xmas is 2008, this year.

OK the previous night W made tentative advances towards me in bed but pulled back when I started to respond. This morning I made advances towards W and she was not happy about it. I've apologised and she's acknowledged this but I can still see her annoyance.

I needed to post today to stop me sending these needy, apologetic and pursuing text messages.

Text: Sorry if I upset you this morning, hope it won't stop us carrying on as friends.

Text: Just to let you know we need to about us, I'm ready to talk, but no rush, and I won't push you, but I just don't want things to drift.

Text: Take care outside, the weather is really bad.

OK no messages sent.

As I said before things have been going very well between us so I guess I was trying to take some large steps when baby steps were needed. I think I got carried away so I need to take a step backards from W and assess where things are going.