And, I think you're right-on on the addiction thing. It's kind of sad.
My "better without her"... It's hard, but I do think my needs were being brushed off. I know I didn't meet all of hers, but hell, she dismissed many of my requests as unimportant.
Ex: We were supposed to do this big camping thing, and share a tent with B and A. And then we learned that B's nephew (9) was going to be going to the event, too. I told my W that I didn't really want to share a tent with a little kid, when at the end of the day I would want to relax.
She responded that B and A said he was really mature for his age and such; I said that it was the kid factor, and having to edit everything I said - not that I planned to be foul or anything, but still. This discussion continued, for about 5 or so minutes.
I proposed just setting up our tent. Her: "You're going to have to set it up and take it down yourself, then, because I don't want to deal with that."
Of course, a few days later she left me, so the camping thing happened differently, but still.
*sighs*
So I think I may be in love with an idealized version of her, or a person who doesn't really exist anymore.
GD - Well, I'm going to be talking to her on Monday (tomorrow) at about 5:30.
I think she's been very tacky in all of this. Acting to my face as a friend, and yet acting "whoo, I'm single!" otherwise.
I'm not exactly expecting her to be as upset and hurt as I am, but I guess I did expect some class.
