So W was supposed to come by today to do some work on the computer. I was so excited, high expectations and all. Well of course she didn't show, and you know what it didn't bother me.
I have finally hit a place where I realize I need to work on me, that is what the 30 days is about. I have no clue what I will find out about myself in that 30 days. But I'm peeling back the layers and asking some tough questions. Whatever my results are only God knows.
Less importatly, I realize that W is W, and only W can work on her or do her work. I can't help her, I can't be there for her, and I won't. She has to deal with her own demons and problems.
Life is so good now, I'm building a network of friends. I'm GAL, I'm reestablishing R's that have been dead for a while. My work is coming along great. My boss feels comfortable enough that he is taking a 2 week long golf trip and has left the office to me. My spirtuality grows daily, I'm reading and praying and enjoying all of it. I'm watching what I eat and I'm exercising again. I'm working on the house, I have fixed my car. It's nice to get order and take responsibility.
I have realized that my life is my life. My happiness is mine and no one elses. Smiles and cries, you can't take that away from me.
I think my next real focus are some of my hobbies that I have neglected.
