I'm not sure yet where this is going but I am reviewing:
July 2, 2007:
Quote:
All the little spats over the last few months in which the anger (sometimes on BOTH sides) seemed more than the situation called for, all the little arguments over D11 and such, they've been like little fuses, lit but fizzling out, but the fuses have gotten shorter and shorter, closer to the explosive, which is the REAL ROOT of it all. Today I was remembering the argument we had a few weeks before school got out. The one D11 overheard, the one where he told me to leave but when we saw her standing there he asked her if she understood why were arguing and he said "it's not because we don't love you or because we don't love each other"... and then I explained to her how we both had different ideas of how to best help her (with her school problems) etc....etc...that was as close, and it was SCARY, as we have come to a major blowup that I know would have crossed all boundaries as far as the issues. But because both kids were in the house, it was neutralized. At the height of that argument he yelled at me "WHY DON'T YOU JUST LEAVE?!" and I said "No. I'm NEVER leaving AGAIN!" When I finally left later that night, we were on good, solid ground. Because we fought THROUGH. He let his anger begin to show and I realized where it was coming from and I knew if I walked out, that would tell him a million times over that he couldn't ever believe in me again.
Again, July 2nd:
Quote:
....a few weeks ago he played this song for me and told me it had "a hell of a message"
I Never Dreamed
My daddy told me always be strong son Don't you ever cry You find the pretty girls and then you love them Then you say goodbye I never dreamed that you would leave me But now you're gone I never dreamed that I would miss you Woman won't you come back home
I never dreamed that you could hurt me And leave me blue I've had a thousand, maybe more But never one like you I never dreamed I could feel so empty But now I'm down I never dreamed that I would beg you Woman I need you now
It seems to me I took your love for granted It feels to me that this time I was wrong, so wrong Oh Lord now I feel so lonely I say woman won't you come back home
I tried to do what my daddy taught me But I think he knew Someday that I would find one woman like you I never dreamed that it could feel so good, Lord That two could be one I never knew about sweet love So woman won't you come back home Oh baby won't you come back home
