This is just ridiculous. He talked to D18 for a few seconds this afternoon and then kept to himself the rest of the day. He didn't want to go to dinner with the two of us (we were relieved) and when we got home at 9:00 he was already in the bed and had left the apt door unlocked!
Hope,
You are right, he doesn't know how good he has it. He thinks he's being used by us all.
I don't know how to do this. I don't know how to be here with him and lead a separate life that he is always disrupting. He says he's staying for the kids and will repair his R with them and yet won't have anything to do with me and thinks there is no way we could ever start over. He's delusional that this is going to work!
Honestly and truthfully it hurts to be loathed so. And honestly, I don't get it. He screwed up, not me. I don't get him hating me the way he does when he is the one that has destroyed everything. It would seem in a real world that he would feel remorse and at least be kind and want to at least not hurt me anymore, instead of continually looking for new ways to tell me how much he doesn't want me and can't stand me. Is everyone who does this do it this way? If I had hurt him in this way I'd crawl through glass to apologize. Does this just show how messed up he really is, or am I naive and this is how these things go?
I wish he'd just pack up and leave. I did tell him he will bring it up again sooner or later and he said no, he wouldn't. I'd bet on me being right.
"Tell me what you plan to do with your one wild and precious life." Mary Oliver
